Tuesday, June 16, 2009

okay, as promised,
THANKYOU MR SMART ONG(:
zz, you also equally noisy, still say me =.=


okayokay,
saturday, go for belated mother's day celebration.
yeah, although dont have everybody, but still quite funn :DDD
its a pity that we play too little times..


yesterday,
went to shiyuan house for her surprise birthday celebration.
haha, played majong there too :D
while renice xinmin joelle pigged. LOL.
okay, quite fun day again :DDDD
Wednesday, June 03, 2009

YAY. I AM SO DAMN THE BLOODY HAPPY.
LIKE REAL

I GUESS YOU WONT UNDERSTAND.
nights and days we spent,
all down the drain.
yay :DDDDDD
whatevr larh.
im rebelllious and whatsoever, you would not be able to knock sense into me.

like real..
Saturday, May 30, 2009

1.
just received the worst possible news ever and on no.
dont be sad people.
and to the rest,
JIAYOU, WO MEN XING DE!
(if you ever understand it)
got alot of feelings about what would happen, but of course, i shant write it here!

2.
hahaha
are we still friends or not?
sometimes, i feel that i know you
but many a times i dont.
when you cry, i dunnoe what to do but stone.
when you angry, i dunnoe what to do but listen and give some lame crap reply
when you talk about guys, i dunnoe what to do but just listen
and appear as a boring and ap and dont care person when you are so high because i seriously got no views about it.
im so scared this day will come, like since last year!

3.
hahaha.
even though ive known you for like more than 3 years, i still dont understand you!
sometimes i think you are okay with me, sometimes i think you hate me.
LOL.
HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE FOR ONE TO UNDERSTAND SOMEONE ELSE?

4.
okay, so we really did it and my side was okay. guess yours was okay too.

i remembered saying this statement a million time
'you all can do it, just a matter of whether you all want to do it'
how many really bothered about what i say? NONE.
how many really was encouraged by it? NONE.
how many even bother to REMEMBER it? NONE.
look at what happen?
i sat there and watch as time passes
and think about what i said to you all.
its so damn the true.
look, one snap and i see a DRASTIC change,
although more can be done.
i feel so sad, why must we do such horrendous stuff to you all than you all will wake up?

pathetic.
i look and look and look.
and oh no.
what has happened?
felt reallyreally sad
and like what he said,
smile, also cannot smile.
cry also cannot cry.
and wonder.
okayokay, maybe it really is their fault, which = to my fault.
ive apologised, told you all what had happened and emphasised,
DONT FOLLOW.
how many really bothered about what i say? NONE.
how many really was encouraged by it? NONE.
how many even bother to REMEMBER it? NONE.
look at what happen?
SNAP.
and the same thing is happening to you all.
dont believe, go see other blogs.

what did i say last week?
blahblahblah.
what did they say this week?
blahblahblah.
same right?
how many really bothered about what i say? NONE.
how many really was encouraged by it? NONE.
how many even bother to REMEMBER it? NONE.
look at what happen?
they said the same thing too.

what did i say that day in november?
blahblahblah.
i still remember that freaking day
where i was really lost for words,
see already want to cry but also cannot cry
pon can pon until so bad.
its a visual cycle.
look at what happen recently?
my ____ also never have so HORRIBLE attendance.

whywhywhy?
why must you all be like that.
mingming hai shi hao de,
what happen now?):
Thursday, May 28, 2009

why do bad things always come together?
like first when i felt so ZZZ
but if course could not tell anyone about it
and all that i could do is just to look and look and look.
then when i came back home,
she had to send me that sms
im speechless.
like hell, what if its me
and why must the world change
why why why
and what are you going to reply me
or are you going to take a day to reply me again
and do you know that i am so scared
and do you know what to do if you are me
and why why why
why must the world change and develope so fast?
SO SAD FOR YOU ALL.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009

went out with del, tingen and charmaine today :D
very happy!!
its been a longlong time since we went out together!!
sad! you pulled her and she couldnt go with us ):
okays,
spent three hours in sakae sushi, talking a lot of stuffs :DD
twodee.twodee.twodee!
bet the waiters were really pissed with us!
haha!
decorated our calculators after that!
then me and delphine went to the pasar malam
and thought back about the old days :O
then we bought sausage! the stall owner damn lame.

(all in mandarin)
del: i want a cheese sausage.
stall owner: anything else?
me: i want a taiwan one
stall owner: do you want a hongkong one?

DELPHINE SIOW, I LOVE YOU TOO :D
TINGEN TOO!
CHARMAINE TOO :D
Friday, May 15, 2009

hello:D
its been a long time since I blog.
haha
still alot of emotions
haha

#5 (#4 was a secret!)

YOU
hang on there no matter what!

YOUYOU
haha, i really dont know who are you now!
first, she's your____ and you talk to her like that!
hello! i keep nagging at you and then you dont care about me. fine lorh.
she's helping you, yet you treat her so bad! hao ren mei hao bao!
i feel really sad for her!
she sacrifice her sleep and work time for you yet you treat her like dirt!
when you need her, you call her.
when she needs your help, you DONT answer her calls and even say she's irritating.
arent you too much?
put yourself in her shoes.
do onto others what you want others to do onto you.
if she dont help you, hehs you are gone!
i really feel like slapping you just now!
next, i tell you alreadty, like that wont work.
then you dont believe me
okay, just you wait and see!
im hiding the truth from you!
haha, i already hit my aim you know?
or rather, i am on my way.
im lieing to you all this while, because i want you to know that what i am saying is correct!
hehs.
you ask me why i never ask you?
i asked you too many a times already, you cant keep to your promise.
okay lorh.
thats why i never asked you!
you want to use than i let you use lorh.
im so mad with you!
bimbo!
keep on screaming!

YOUYOUYOU
hang on!
your back on track! :D

YOUYOUYOUYOU
lol,
did you change too?

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOU
thanks for listening to my rants :D

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU
hang on too!

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU
lol, feels wierd not talking to you for so long!

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU
you too1

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU
you also!

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU
haha, and you!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009

how am i feeling right now?
happy,sad and scared.
really scared and sad though..
yes i know, one day, i have to place my trust in them.
but right now, im still scared.
i believe that they will make it someday, somehow
and that would be one of the best moment of my life.
but for now, there is a lump of unwillingness and sadness
what used to be yours would no longer be.):


ngSHIYUAN: someone likes you!! :PPPP
Monday, April 06, 2009

to my division;

im really proud of each and everyone of you
i see everyone of you putting in your very best and that is what matters to all of us :D
i see people encouraging one another and that is what matters the most to me.
all the way AHSJAB! :D
Wednesday, March 18, 2009

zz.
its wednesday already
and i have yet to do my hoework x.x
and here i am
blogging
going to facebook/friendster
and watching yuan zhi hui :D
okay whatever larh


yesterday,
i was talking to shiyuan on the phone...
i think i nearly fell asleep again..
oh no!
shiyuan a.k.a GLUTTON!
why do i always want to fall asleep when talking to you???
:DDDDDDDD
Friday, March 13, 2009

HELLOHELLO :D

its time for me to post!
i posted before march holidays!:D

well, sec four life has been good so far, as in 4H.
realised that im kinda spending more time there?
LOL :D

1. i enjoy pe nowadays :D
gives me an excuse to wear pe tee:D
and also, i get to play bball or whatever it may be :D
yay :D

2. some people really do take a long time to mature...
LOL :D

3. i got a cousin, a brother and a sister in this school, just that i never tell you all..
cool right :D
want to know who, ask me :DDDD

4. i like it that we are dismissed 45 mins earlier than the rest on fridays :D
double :DD
triple :DDD
quad :DDDD
quint! :DDDDD

okay, im being lame
no im not!
im just trying to bring entertainment to my life (or something like that)
as quoted by the person sitting in front of me! :x
Tuesday, February 17, 2009

im still thanking you though i feel more could be done :o
anyway,
THANKYOU(:


it was a longlong way home.
never walked home that route before.
never took so long to go home too.
time passes and people change.
what you once used to know of them may not be the same.
dont be surprised.
its cause time moulded them this way.

that day,
as i walked.
i thought it through.
and im sure, i'll make the right desicions.
its only __. im sure we'll make it through,
hang on there!<3

i hope my latest decision is the right one :D
Tuesday, February 10, 2009

HELLO :DDD

im having an early day home :DD

and im watching yuan zhi hui x.x
Wednesday, February 04, 2009

i just want to apologise to all those whom i have heard in the past week.

SORRY >(





anyway,
i just want to thank these few people who have been enduring all my whines and whatsoever.

firstly to -------- and ----------
for always giving me a listening year
for always trying to understand
for always trying to help
for making me smile
or rather, just being there.
----------,
even though i may not be as fortunate,
to have _______ by my side,
i hope that i will be able to make it with all that i have.



secondly to ---------,
or going through manymany things with me
and not leaving me in the lurch.
though we may have differences at times,
i'll still think that we make the best ________



and finally to the ---------,
for always being there
and for the support all this while
for making my life easier
for allowing me to put my mind at ease
and for just being there (:

thankyou(:

anyway,
im sitting beside khoonhan!!!
AYE! DID YOU SEE THIS?!?!
are you honoured? :p
okay larh
thanks for talking to me in class [than i wont get bored!]
thanks for letting me rant!
thanks for teaching me maths too :D
yay!

wheeee.
and renice goh!
you should smile more and more okay!
kick that thing away man,
and next time we shant take turns to be moody le :p


andand xinmin!
i know you have got a love letter hidden there.
show me okay!
i promise i wont tell anyone what i see. :DDDDD
Wednesday, January 21, 2009

WHAT HAPPEN TO YOUR OLD SELF?

tried to get myself motivated after reading that.
okay, i shall try.

smile more and talk less?
well, that was my new year resolution.
guess, ive yet to achieve it.

i miss the old you! >(